Lost

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were cryin'

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
Then the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And God I hope it's not too late
Mm, it's not too late

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Though things have seemed to change
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly, fly, fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear the cross
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

Its been such a hectic week with trainings, performance and work that I hardly have the time to sleep even. So glad its over, and the reward : A Guess watch. Not something I really fancy but well, it goes to my collection of watches anyway.

Life is tough enough, but what makes it even tougher is the decisions that I have to make. I'll leave out the details, for it will just bury me even deeper before I try to break out of it. How nice if I have a dice where I can faithfully follow it after it tells me what to do when I rolled it. To hell ya.

There are just too many things for me to blog, but I dun know where to begin with or how to start. Perhaps I should have just fall asleep while driving back home yesterday, crashed the car and get into a temporary coma, so I can relieve myself from the mental strain i am going through right now.

Let's see how I fight through this period. Kc no longer has the fighting spirit to go through it all anymore.

2 months

Perhaps I created this blog 2 months ago as a punching bag, to punch all my pain away. Looking back , it really amazes me how fast someone can turn against you. Because this is not a first for me, I guess I have learnt to manage it quite well. Yes, I admit that the initial stage is tough and slow, but once you are done with it, you soar like an eagle.

Its saddening to acknowledge the fact that I have lost 2 friends/teammates, but its more heartwrenching to know what they are going through now. I feel for you. I was never one who likes to bear grudges, even if there was, it is temporary. (Tell me I am wrong).

I hope we can be friends at least once again, let time decide how long it will take.

I have taken these 2 months to train up, and tried be a better person, though I know nothing I do now will change anything.

This is for you, something which we dreamt for so much not long ago.

Aces of Bases'82 Version 2

Isolation

What is is like to be in isolation? To be left out of a group everytime and asked to join in activities just for another agenda. I cannot imagine how miserable it is to live on like this.

The world does not revolve around yourself. What happened to your "friends" who were there for you when you needed them? Are they still around to provide you the genuine listening ear? How painful.

We do not have to rely on others, but we still need to have friends around. I have learnt it the hard way from my past. Never am I gonna let it repeat. I am glad I did not, yet I see others following my footsteps.

Well, since they choose this path, what can be done but let them continue to live on.
Is this called true happiness? Only they themselves know.

Liberty Tick Tock

Liberty Tick Tock, 2nd try


Went down for some last minute partner stunts training today. Some form of achievement, at least for me. XW watch it. I am catching up...haha

There is no failure except in no longer trying. Spare no resource.

It just gets better each time.